
Filling eco-ladrillos for the Recycled Recreation Project.
This month is one of many firsts for me. My first fundraising drive, my first project startup, my first week alone in a wholly spanish speaking environment…. My first homesick bout.
My homesickness bout actually came before the immersion/isolation amongst non-english speaking people. It came out of the clear blue sky, and tumbled over me like a heavy storm…. I was engulfed with the “I want my mummy’s home cooked pumpkin soup!” feeling of emptiness, followed later that day by the “I just want to pop into my friend’s house for red wine, dark chocolate and good natured gossip!” thought, and a little later still was I bombarded with “I can’t believe that I am missing my niece’s first bounce in the jolly jumper!” guilt trip rollercoaster.…..

Silly Faces.
A busy day in the brain of Miss Jasmin, but a natural occurrence in the cycle of long stints away from home.
These feelings came around the time that I crossed the Mexican border for the second time. A new stamp in my passport: marking the end of my sixth month here….and the beginning of a new phase in my Guatemalan adventures. A phase that asks me to consolidate my energies here…. To ‘put my money where my mouth is” so to speak.
Choosing to be here is one thing. Asking my friends and family to support that choice by donating money is another. Like Corrina, I too am proud that I have been financially independent since leaving school. I am not good at asking for money, it feels like a dirty task. However this month we held my first ever fundraiser; with the high stake of providing the security to know that I can pay my rent. And yes, I am entirely aware of the irony of such a plight: being here and working with the campesinos who are struggling because their crops are failing, and can they can barely find the money to feed their families. And I do understand that unlike them, I could get a job in the touristy town of Antigua in a bar….. But I know that my energies are so much better spent working in the communities doing this work that has become food for my soul!!
![Fabiola teaching me how to wrap the mazeca [ground corn flour] in leaves, to be cooked over the fire.](http://projectseres.org/wp-content/uploads/2010/08/P1020950-150x150.jpg)
Making Tamales.
Going into the July Fundraiser I was consumed with guilt and apprehension at the reality of typing dozens and dozens of letters asking for financial help…… however during the month of July I was chauffeured down memory lane as letters that I had written were responded to, and donations of money, and of gossip, from friends and family were received….. And now, as August dawns, I am in awe of the generosity of spirit and of purse that I have been blessed with from my family and friends who are a world away, yet forever held close in my heart.
With my first ever fundraiser month behind me, I embark upon another first. The first project that I run as part of Seres. The Recycled Recreation Project. I have been through all the emotions with it, but ultimately I am so very gratified that it is coming together, and that I am doing something so meaningful. As a friend of mine just said: I am doing something ‘real’. Which is why I am here. Which is what I seek in all ventures that I undertake. It has got to be real… got to ring ‘true’. Partnered with ‘real’ comes challenge, inspiration, learning, knowledge, and magic. To me the ‘reality check’ is an important one, and this work is definitely one that is providing me with all that I seek.

The first Recycled Recreation design meeting.
I look about me and I am inspired. I am inspired by the children living here in the Casa del Niño who have gone from living on the street to thriving in their new school, and working together as a team. I am inspired by the camepesino Fransisco who works tirelessly from 5am to clear an entire field of trees with just his trusty machete. I am inspired by my mentor and friend Corrina who puts her mind to something and makes it happen = be it as small as a chicken coop, or as grand as a college. I am inspired by the three year old sitting on my lap right now who is doing his best to count to ten in english…. And as I count back to him in spanish I am inspired by my own ability to do some of the things that I never thought possible for myself.
Being here is challenging every part of my being, and every skill set that I possess, and is teaching me, and challenging me more than I dreamed it could. I am being shaped by this experience to every corner of my being: from physical work, to new concepts and methods, to the basic tasks that I had (until coming here) taken for granted like communication…. Especially communication.

You don't need words to make the children laugh!!
This week is my first one alone in a wholly spanish speaking environment, with no safety net of a translator to convey my wants, needs or wishes. I am grateful for the ‘sink or swim’ opportunity…. I am doing the best damned dog paddling you have ever seen! I get lots wrong, but I also get lots right. I am finally relying less on Google Translate, and more on my own new skill set. It shall be a long time before I write a blog in spanish, but I am now capable of looking people in the eye and having a real [albeit limited] two way conversation with them. Yay for me [if I do say so myself]!!
So as I finish this blog, I prepare to leave for the workshop that the children and I are holding in the local school to raise awareness of the work that we are doing here at the Casa del Niño, also to teach them about recycling and reusing, and to ask them to help us collect resources for our Recycled Recreation Project. I have prepared some sentences in spanish that I am going to paddle my way through, and hope for the best!
As my darling Grandmother told me: “Its sink or swim petal. Throw them in the deep end and they will figure it out one way or another.” I intend to keep my head above the water, and give it my all. I am not afraid to look like a dog paddling fool…. or to ask for floaties…..
Because I intend to make it to the other side. In all my endeavors.